life is never great

im bCk!

2007-08-31T11:15:00.000-07:00

ok..after a very long long time ive decided to check my blogspot..whether it still user friendly....

well i guess it is...and guess what i managed to do the blog all by myself..how bout that...hahaha...clap clap for me...

i guess ill be doing the updates someother time..im too tired and im on afternoon shift tomm.so i need all the sleep that i can get...im on morning the next two days...hmmmm....

see ya agin people!

weddings after weddings after weddings.....

2006-12-13T01:11:00.000-08:00

weddings after weddings after weddings.....and more to come...wow!

i went to alot of my friends wedding this past few weeks...

when will it be my turn...not anytime soon.

raye pictures!

2006-11-13T08:52:00.001-08:00

its been sometimes

2006-10-19T04:29:00.000-07:00

its bn quite a while since i last update my blog...

im not sure what to write....

fasting months is ending soon n hari raya is in a few days time.

my cousins from dubai is touching down tomm morning....

this year raye my family is without someone important.my father will be celebrating

raye alone this year because hes in canada.

money is tight this month with so many things to pay.farrid got a job as a junior

technician which start today...

2006-09-30T23:25:00.000-07:00

life w/o him

2006-09-30T22:57:00.000-07:00

yesterday i met them...was rite someone made me mad..spoilt it the whole evening.we went bukeing at geylang.fai"s uncle place.i love to go there due to t he wonderful western food they have...but my food didnt taste nice at all.that someone made me so furious that i have no mood to even finish my food.why do he have to lie and make me angry.im losing it . eventhough we spent almost 4 yrs together i think it will not last.ive change for that person and that person is still the same.how do you feel wen that person mention that he is lazy to tell you wheres he where abouts and he feels that i do not need to knw.whta does that explain.we talk yest and i told him no use trying wen you knw that its not gonna last.and he say yes..what a jerk rite...i think slowly without me knowing myself im giving up already.

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my father left for canada 2 weeks ago..fasting month w/o him.maybe raye too.
i kinda miss him...im in charge nw..very stressfull.he call us everyday...hes fasting there but not doing well...jetlack,new environment and fasting w/o his family.often he told my mother that he wants to return to singapore...hope he is ok there..you knw US....that place not safe man...

dnd

2006-09-14T21:33:00.000-07:00

the other day 9.9.06..i had my dnd
it was ok only for the massive headache that i suffered...ending up i left early.
i hate it i could have stayed longer.it was my first time going to company's dnd.aha!of course so many people i knw got drunk....behave like some siou people.haha....

2006-08-31T09:20:00.000-07:00

the past.....

2006-08-31T07:59:00.000-07:00

my new hairstyle..... check out the past past past photos.people are all getting married..i also want lah..haha

2006-08-25T07:52:00.000-07:00

heya...today i went out alone...kerane my bf is in camp doing some freaking duty.
yesterday nite while at werk baby called..he say that he was offered to join the army full time...i was shock..theres opening..finally..but its not confirm whether hell get it yet,hopefully lah..at least senang sikit if hes a regular. neway sargent post punye gaji boleh lah tahan..but i need to be prepared not to see him often..mane he have to travel alot...constantly on call and asik kat camp lah nampaknye.but itu semua kalau hes confirm lah...

praying hard that hell get it, meanwhile nothing interesting happen...work work work...ooh ya im getting the bike...i havent mention it yet. i knw....xr 125....im on my way there...3 months and i can ride it...hoo!cant wait like shit.

im back!!!

2006-08-06T20:43:00.000-07:00

hello bloggies...

its been quite a while since i last blog.
i was on nite shift again so that explain the disappearance for awhile.
things were great for the first time ward 11 was not full.the ward census drop to 22 yesterday out of 37.

was on with arni kak bani and doreen...gerek!
hopefully i can do more nites with them again...
eventhough we onli have little patients but they all banyak the ragam man..

ndp is coming..if im not going for the parade ill shall join my fam for a mini bbq cum celebration...(the august babies)ill be getting the cake!
ooh ya i just got lesportsac for my mom from US...shell be trill that i got the exact one that she wanted....

ok lor i ll update again if the time allowes me too...

2006-07-25T09:55:00.000-07:00

i was on pm shift today
came back and watch tv till 12 mn..
decided to dye my hair next.
tomm im on off and the next day..sister grant me another extra day off...
im so grateful to have NO's like them..thank you ALLAH.

last week i attended one of my good friend wedding...she's the first among all.
most of us still in shock pasal its like a sudden thing.theres 13 of us. now left 12.i wonder whos next.
it will not be me and farrid cause we are still not as ready as tati is.
she look pretty..she has always been pretty.

eventhough tomm is my off day i still need to return to work in the afternoon for my vision alighment course..which i dont knw what the hell it is.the off to meet shariffa in the evening.mor cant join us pasal she's on afternoon..watie pulak not too sure.ok lah sembarang..bukan selalu dapat jumpe right!

my relationship with farrid...haiz...picking up the pieces slowly.
i pray to you allah please guide my relationship with him..give us patience...insyaallah things will work out fine just like before.amin

2006-07-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

bay beats is coming to town
so put on your dancing shoes and lets start boogiing...
thank god im having three days off.
my sister knws lah i want to go and catch bay beats on friday sat and sunday..hehe
im currntly doing night shift...tiring
i just cant figure out ah why all these patient of mine nak buat pe'el mesti at night...they will not make any dramas during my morning or afternoon shift tau.
my patience is tested every single night.thats why the hospital pay you extra to work night shift.
i even start talking to myself already.which is not a good sign.i was caught by doctor taufiq talking to myself..haha so funny.
i need to tahan for another 2 more nights then off i go..but need to continue the next week lah pasal im on night for two weeks..money!!!

2006-07-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

i knw relationship can never be an easy thing....
i dun knw where its leading
ill confirm it again
im confuse over what had just happen
hope its the right decision im making
wait and see

2006-07-04T06:20:00.000-07:00

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taken during one of our trip to sentosa...just the 4 of us!!!

2006-07-04T02:24:00.000-07:00

me just came back from my morning shift...shitty shitty
hate to work with some staff nurse who cant even lift up her butt to help us AN yg terkial kial to do our work.
arent we all nurses...pegi mampos ah kau staff nurse ke sister ke...kate patient care number one...kepale otak kau patient care no one....
i do not want to menjawab them cause later they will feedback to sister" ooh hamila ah she cannot be ask to do work eh....always got reasons not to do" ooh they are very good with turning the stories as if they are the victim.....
ahh malas lah..yg penting nye i finish my job and im happy now.

last thursday i did something that i never thought i would ever do...i became a part time model for my very good friend nurul whos training to become a certifite make up artist...keke//she's certifite cume nak up lagi to mak andam lah..haha..what an experience...i have to like be with the real models who are minah2..MY GOWD!!!!tak boleh tahan leh with what they usually converse...bitching about other models kawin la tunang lah when they are onli mostly 19....mak kau!!!lucky ive met evy...my other partner....she's the real model out of the 6....power man she...camera cakap ready...she can turn the picture from tak lawa to lawa sey...she's so different ..tak minah2 sungguh...barely talk..tapi bile talk mak oi....she's the gerek habis...ok im talking crazy now.

k lah i went to video ezy the other day and borrowed some movies so tonite gonna watch all the movies till i drop dead in front of the tv

my mother wants me to upload all the family photos to her multiply so that my dearest cousin whos in dubai can see them....hehe...

toodles

me back!!!

2006-06-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

after such a long time not updating i finally am doing now.
been busy working n on top of that my pc has totally shut itself on me.
now im with my new laptop and the previous comp with the new modem...hehe..taking advantage of the laptop while i can.

work as usual has been busy and alot of things happening here and there.but like i usually tell myself if i can endure 2 years of hell in school i surely can do the same now.

im not the sort of person to be blabbing about people in my blog.if you have notice my blog has always been about me myself n i.

but i cant help it now...this is a blog whereby i can write whatever i want rite.
im kinda disturbed by some events the occured recently.i hve alwyas treat that someone or some people my gd friends but up till that incident.i dun think i want to call that person a friend anymore.been there don that for that someone but to no used..so i guess i shall not waste anymore time. have new friends now who i enjoy their company very much.

you knw what i miss kak pah watie n nor!!!!!when can i see them...busy busy!

2006-06-13T04:49:00.000-07:00

hello people....time check its 1945 hrs.
im at my grams visiting her cause she's leaving for dubai tomm.
and of course ill be having my off tomm. so can relax.
work has been really stress and constantly busy..
skippin meals due to the workloads.
being an AN is not easy man.

alot of things happen the past few days...
guess what people!!!
my dearest darling farrid bought me a camera and my lovely lovely adidas bag(the one that i fell inlove with) for my 21th bday..he also suprised me with a huge banana cake and all the friends that i love was at al majlis to do the suprising...
too bad dana and has couldnt make it...abah and imran xcidentally forgot the date of the suprise....haha

went to sentosa to just ease up with baby jaja n yan on one of the off days...had alot of fun...berendam like mad...terus gelap aku..then click click with my new camera...hehe

dad's home from canada.he suprised us by coming back 2 weeks early....glad that hes home.he has been sending me to work almost everyday...thank you papa...can sleep xtra hour.

ill be busy again after thursday....course lah, morning shift mostly...darn!i hate morning shift...i hate waking up early.

to all the AH staff whos reading this..korang nak gi dnd tak? tag aku.. or msg hp aku..maybe nora nak bukak satu table for us......

till then toodles

Graduation pictures

2006-06-05T07:03:00.000-07:00

nhg!!!

2006-06-01T18:21:00.000-07:00

aisyah aisyah....semangat tido eh kau..aku tau lah bende tu boring!!!haha..kesian die
3 gals who cant stop
look.. click click away gals..during our nhg course in nuh
on our home taking the ascalator to the platform,step mane nye busy aku
Smiles everybody!of couse nak balik jumpe katil....
me syikin and dana.
kissing dana...never!

overall the course was a great one...before each and everyone of us depart to our gates of hell..that is to our respective wards....haha....

yesterday was my graduation...finally!was a sad and memorable journey each and everyone of us went...hope all of us will achieve in whatever we aim for in the future.love you all NURSES!

i will upload the picture soon....

back to werk!!!

2006-05-26T22:13:00.000-07:00

gd afternoon people...

just came back from work...i was suppose to end my shift at 11am but it drag till 11.45...

itu pon still not finish leh..

yup today i officially came back to ward after much rest.

i was ask to take care 3 cubicle...damn man..all the patients are so not independent.

i wanted to meet nurul after work but decided to go home instead and bath..

maklumlah sweating like a pig...

but later will be meeting her..at her salon..

k lah later going dinner with my mommy and bro minus my dad since hes in canada.farrid is taking ova his place...haha..poor farrid kene drag along.

k..tomm movie with the gangs then chilling out with them.till then...

kinda miss has dana and syikin rock eh...miss their jokes...can wait to see them on monday..eventhough i met you in the morning dana...haha

2006-05-24T01:08:00.000-07:00

i want this so much...my father to the rescue after much pleading during our vacation at KL

this was taken on one fine day in AH training lab...lecturer yak yak yak me click click away...in pink of health still

i was recently diagnosed as having on set of endometriosis...want to knw whts that....go and find out yourself..hehe...alah go internet you can understand betta.so for now depend on painkiller to survive..haha ya rite,for the pain lah.im praying hard that its just an onset.....please god answer my prayers.

2006-05-22T05:54:00.000-07:00

me just reach home just now.from Alexandra Hospital.
yup i was admitted on saturday night due to the pain that im constantly having.
they did not want to admit me on sat but my aunt n mom make sure thay did.or else i think they will be seeing me again soon.after giving me an injection to subside the pain normal test were done.after some arrangements..i was send to ward 7 by 10.30pm.i was entitled to b2 ward whc i do not need to fock out a single cent...(staff there mah) but decided to upgrade to a b1 class.i like my stay there.staff there were very nice...soon i was diagnose with pelvis inflammatory disease.that also inflammed my cervix....various test were done....damn i felt like giving birth sey..haha

news spread so fast...soon enough i had people calling my ext line...i didnt get to sleep due to the pain..even with ponstan.farrid call me once he receive the msg from mama...so sweet of him.he was in camp but he came down immediately.he reach the hospital at abt 4 am.he was out on a mission(camp).by the time he reach the hosp i was fast asleep.he stayed till 5 plus then left for home.

he came the next morning and at night too.hes trying his best to redemned himself.poor farrid trying his best.we didnt fight cause most of the time i was crying trying to tahan the pain mah...japs after japs were given to make the pain go away..so far everything went well.im going to see the gynae(nuh) that's taking over my case.thanks to all my friends aunts uncle all my couz for your time my family members farrid family members for the support.appriciate them.hope to recover as soon as possible...i cant wait to start work...ciboking the nyonya's...miss my patient already..haha.ooh ya to all my staff from various wards of AH and the NO's.especially my ward NO(sister pauline-thanks for balloon and sister ranjit))thanks for the hamper and your understanding!

thanks guys!

2006-05-18T19:42:00.000-07:00

hello people...

im on mc today...still in pain but not as bad as yesterday..yesterday was preety bad...i feel like im pregnant or something...my stomach was so huge and the pain...even with the slightest move....

would like to thanks HAS DANA AND NORA for sending me to A&E...i love you guys.there i was send to do xray of my abdom.then thy gave injection to take away the pain..then some minor scan...they found a small cyst(dunno how to spell lah)..they still canT confirm whether its intestinal obstruction thats causing the pain or the cyst.therefore i will need to go back for a thorough scanning on the 23rd.

i was given pain killer...but still in pain.

i just dun understand..maybe god is testing my patience and whether i still go back to him to seek help and guidance...

after so much pain...farrid still ask me stupid stupid questions....you may think that its petty but to me is not..he was granted nights off..as a bf if you knw your gf is in pain...you would come and see her rite...but he choose to go clubbing with his friends...told me that hes in dilemma cause hes good friend is gooing on a mission so want to have fun..FUN!!! what kind of a bf is these.this is not the first time...told him to go and have fun till he die!!!i told him that he can choose his friends frm now on...i dun need all this heartpain.

Im LEAVING HIM!

today rantz

2006-05-17T10:29:00.000-07:00

guess where i am?

guess lah?

guess already?

k lah i tell you guys....

i....am.....at AH computer lab...as usual..they ask me to do elearning i go n surf surf lah...

yesterday after work wen out wit farrid....things were great lah..having my good mood mah..laugh laugh joke joke disturb disturb skali..guess who we xcidentally bump into

jeng jeng...

my x bf..damn seh..i tegur him and he tegur me...introduce him to farrid...he was not that happy..cause alah you knw lah x and current bf thing lah..
well he just said hi, then he left.

the day before yest,
i went to see anugerah skrin...such waste of time...thank god for the company....has danah abah imran syikin and farrid.k lah its a new xperience for me lah and farrid.the last time wen to caldecot was like 5 or 6 years ago to watch pyramid game...haha...i knw has will be laughing at me again..kental sey..

klah.ill update again soon..going back to my work.see ya!

harlow

2006-05-14T03:15:00.000-07:00

harlow people.....these is my blog...i finally knw how to make a blog..hurray...to kak na whos in dubai...i have a blog..yeah, tapi kan hopefully and praying hard that i heve the time in the world to update them.due to work committment leh

today is mother's day...went all the way to jurong west to get my grandmama a cake....got these huge cake for her...hai lah nenek ku bile kite sampai rumah maksu...told her that we got for her the cake...she grumble" asal susah2..aku dah dapat bunge dah...selendang brooch..abeh asik nangis aje" kenape buang2 duit....mane ade buang buang duit nek ...told us that she has been crying since morning...kak ila datang wish her hapi mothers day she cry then maksu n fam she cry then cik ya she cry watch sandiwara also cry....kesian lah nenek ku.

but overall she ok lah... she receive alot of bunge and done so much of crying...hehe...thats my lovely grandma.